Feeling Fear

  Ever have a morning where you wake up and you are filled with fear, like it hits you out of nowhere? I experienced that this morning when a wave of fears crashed over me. I began to be worried about my teenage son and continuing to teach him what responsibility looks like. I think my girls have it wired into them, but it has been more challenging with a teenage boy. I began to freak out in my head over my aging parents and what's to come with them. I worried about my daughter who is on her own in another state and then I feared about our upcoming move and where will we live and our finances and the list goes on. Sometimes fear comes out of nowhere. It can take me to a place where I feel frozen in fear, almost panicky, but then I am reminded of God, my father, who knows and sees all things and who can only bring the peace that passes understanding. He very gently and quickly swoops in to remind me of His peace and His presence in my life. I slowly come out of my coma of fear and remember it's all in His hands. It is once again about trusting Him. It's taking one moment at a time, one day at a time. It will be ok. God makes it ok.
   I've found it's like talking someone down off of a ledge and I realize God has always done this for me. He talks me off of the ledge of fear and gently grabs my hand and holds me in the safe and gentle way only He can. I breathe a sigh of relief. Once again, He has rescued me and pulled me through a bout of panic and fear and I'm gonna make it. I 'm gonna be ok. I've had random bouts of fear like this throughout my life and when I was a kid they happened usually at night or even in the middle of the night. Bad dreams would wake me up and I'd call for my earthly father to tell him I had a bad dream. He would remind me that it was ok and he was there and that my Heavenly Father was watching over me and was keeping me safe. It was amazing what the presence of someone else did to help calm my fear and what prayers did to help me feel peace and help me go back to sleep again.
If you have fears or find yourself living in fear remember to take them to Him. He promises to comfort us and says we can trust in Him. He provides in ways we don't even expect and this morning after I wrote this He showed up and reminded me of this verse: "Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you with my victorious right hand. Isaiah 41:10"
   So grateful for His constant presence in my life and consistent reminders that He is bigger and all I have to do is put it into His hands. He will do the rest.