I'm enough

It is scary when I am living in fear and not knowing what lies ahead.
I want to know I'm safe.
I want to know I'm gonna be taken care of.
I want to know I will have enough, that I am enough.
So many questions...
Will we really be ok?
Will we adjust back to home?
Will my kids be ok?
So many thoughts going through my head about life and what the future holds. So many moves, so much change, but God continues to confirm and push us toward more change. With change comes even more growth.
I have grown so much with the change we made moving to the North. I've learned so much about me and others. I've learned more about who I want to be, what I want to be and who and what I don't want to be. I've learned I want to be me. It's what I was meant to be. Nobody else, just broken and silly me.
I've learned how much more I love my Rescuer who rescues me time and time again. I've learned I still doubt Him and don't always trust Him.
I've learned how much more I love my husband after twenty years of marriage and how much more I love and adore my kids and how strong they are.
I've learned I still have so much to learn. I'm a constant work in progress. I've been reminded I have things I want to say, things I want to write. Even if only for me and my own therapy, I will say them. I will be brave. I will be me and not ashamed of it. I will embrace my womanhood and the power that comes with it. I am capable of so much more than I knew. I am strong and able to handle hard, difficult things and I want to show my children they are too.
We are all meant to be uniquely us, to make a difference in this world because of our uniqueness. So even when I'm feeling so much fear and can't see anything ahead of me, I will keep waking up each day and showing up, just being me. It's about all I've got right now and it's enough.